Tuesday, January 29, 2008

Rest In Peace Grandma



My beloved Grandma has passed away at the ripe old age of 78……..

I cannot / dunno how to put in words the feelings which are in my heart right now. For me, I am just thankful that she is gone…..

At least she’s no longer feeling the pain, no longer living in isolation, no longer a part of all the squabbling / bullshit / acting ( she's not stupid you know ), etc.

Memories of my times with her flashed thru my mind during her funeral but I couldn’t bring myself to cry out loud….maybe its because I know way tooooooooooooooooooooo much of things that has been happening during the last part of her life……maybe I so happy to see her go to a better place…who knows?

Rest in peace dear Grandma, please say hello to Grandpa and Uncle Poon for me…tell them I miss them so much……

Grandma, remember the question I asked you during your last visit? It was one question which you didn’t answer yet….kekekekeke. Let me know when you know k?

By the way Grandma, I will be celebrating Chinese New Year as usual this year…you know I am not the kind to adhere to any taboo or pantangs right? Very sad that you had to miss this CNY but “Kong Hei Fatt Choy” all the same……………….

THANK YOU DEAR LORD FOR RELIEVING MY GRANDMA OF ALL THE PAIN AND MISERY….and Thank You for letting her live a full life.......thank you........


2 every1 his/her OWN…………….

8 comments:

Judy said...

My deepest condolences.

As you said, she is no longer in pain or suffering but it is the ones whom she has left behind who will miss her and feel the loss.

Jamie said...

thanks judy.....I sincerely hope that all the shit will stop

Marsha M said...

Yes, I couldn't agree with you more about her going to a better place, you know. Like...I have this feeling that she's 25 again, young, can walk, run, do cartwheels in green fields with Ah-Kong now. She's playing amongst the trees Bollywood style with him and just enjoying after-life. :-)

As for the 'shit' you're talking about.....just let it be-lah, Jamie. It's not our business, we should concentrate on building a strong bond amongst OUR generation and be there for each other. It's up to them to rebuild, rebond or just do nothing about it. We, as the younger generation, should respect them for whoever they are because we are younger. Even if we have ideas and opinions, I think 'respect' comes first because it's important. I mean, I have opinions but I went ahead and voice them, I would be entangling myself into the web as well....which will eventually seep into THIS generation, right? Then everything lagi kecoh....parents and children fighting because of something so....sad.....

I am also thankful that we, you me and all the other cousins within this generation, have good relationships with each other. seriously!

Let's build on that and make sure we stand beside each other together-gether. Let's not allow 'shit' to happen. Let's remember, whether you're Tan, Eng or Maung, we're bonded by blood.

Love,
Marsha

p.s. you say you want to send me the picture and let me blog about it?? :-) Actually, to tell you the truth, I had my camera with me (and cell phone too) but I was too chicken and sad to take pictures, man! you know me lah....

Jamie said...

sorry for not sending u the pics as promised....

maybe the shit will stop....maybe it won't but I don't care fuck!! won't be a part of it at all....

call me out for a drink one of these days and maybe I will tell you some things that happened during the funeral that you missed...things that got everyone kaninabehfuck pissed....

As I've said...rest in peace grandma...nothing is your fault...you fed and taught everyone to your best ability...send my regards to grandpa, uncle Poon and uncle Lawrence..just observe the shit in peace from where you are...

Terence Toh said...

deepest condolences.

Jamie said...

thanks bro....

you going back to Malacca for the holidays?

Terence Toh said...

yes. i'm going back tomorrow after 1/2 day in the office. but the traffic got to be real clogged up tomorrow. you ?

Jamie said...

I will be in KL for the holidays....too much traffic and chaos to handle if I go back to Penang. Will probably make a trip after the holidays.

Gong Hei Fatt Choy bro....